The Helpless Need Help. What are You Going to do About it?

I walked out of my apartment this morning and groaned as I was met by a nasty, cold wind. I walked 20 feet to my car and then later from my car into work. THAT was enough of the cold for me. 

Not that they have really left my mind at all, but I couldn't help but think about the people we met yesterday. How could I not? Here I was complaining about the cold with my warm coat and car that was already warm thanks to auto-start...and not far from me, there are people who have to deal with this all day.

Absolutely nothing could have prepared me for what we saw yesterday. I really THOUGHT I was. Never did I realize just how bad it was going to be. We made 100 bags with food and other items...and they were gone within no time at all. As soon as people started realizing what we had, they flocked around us asking for bags. It wasn't just men either....women, children, elderly, and the disabled all NEEDING those sandwiches we were handing out. 

We don't truly know what the definition of "heartbreaking" is, until we see God's children struggling for the necessities to survive. 

Did ya really get that? Struggling for the necessities to survive. Just forget about the extras. I mean, my sister gave a hand-made pink blanket to a very old, frail woman. This lady lit up. She kept talking about how beautiful this blanket made her feel and how she hadn't had something that lovely in ages.

A blanket. A simple blanket. 

A million thoughts and questions have been going through my mind the last 24 hours. How did I not know about this? How is this happening? How are we ALLOWING this to happen? Are we not called to help one another? 

And finally...

What can I do to make a difference?

People, just because we go about our daily lives and pretend like everything is okay, doesn't mean it is. While we stress over the petty and material things in life, there are people right down the road from us who NEED HELP. I mean, I think of all the money people spend on Christmas gifts for their families, friends, coworkers, etc. that eventually are just going to be tossed aside. That money could be going towards a bus ticket to help a man get to his out of town family and off the streets. For many people on the streets, that is literally all it would take.

How can we WANT so much when there is such a NEED? These are real, live people! They have real thoughts and real fears and real needs. They are just as much God's children as you and me. And yet, we disregard them. MAYBE give a couple bucks to a man playing the guitar down by the Scottrade Center...MAYBE some spare change to the person holding a sign at an intersection. And we feel good about ourselves, don't we? 

What if there was something we could really do? 

Well guess what....there IS. God doesn't call us to be comfortable. He wants us OUT of our comfort zone and where He wants us to be. Living in our little bubbles doesn't do anyone any good. Stop sitting on your butt and do something worth while in this life. You aren't going to be rewarded for getting to the highest level of Candy Crush possible or having the most fashionable clothes of all your friends. Tomorrow is never guaranteed, my friends. Stop waiting for an opportunity to make a difference and start doing. 

I double dare you to go with us the next time we go downtown. If you could leave there without feeling SOMETHING, you need help haha.

God knew what He was doing when he laid it on my heart a month ago to help the homeless on December 22nd. He knew what He was doing when He made our path cross with another group called Homeless Revolution. I talked quite a bit with the founder of the group today and oh my goodness. What an awesome guy! Their group not only brings the homeless necessities, but they take the time to get to know these people and try and figure out how to get them off the streets. Whoa! I hope to learn a lot more from this guy and hopefully start helping some of these people.

Are you in?

I'm Katie, and I'm a Control Freak

I’m a control freak. Always have been. I mean, it’s so bad that when I feel like I am not in control of a situation, I will have a major anxiety attack. I’ve recently decided that I think it has something to do with the whole bi-polar thing. There have been a few times in my life (not so much recently) where I have SO not been in the right frame of mind to make a decision and so the decision has been made for me. Or where I haven’t felt in control of myself and it freaks me the heck out. So, I have control issues. I have to be in control.

As I’m sure you can imagine, it has really caused a strain in my relationship with God. I’ve never fully been able to surrender my life to Him. I’ve never been able to step away and say “not my will, but YOURS be done, Lord”. I always have felt like I needed to make things happen and I need to do my own thing. I’ve always known that God’s plan for me is a lot more perfect than anything I could ever muster up and I’ve known that if I just let Him take the reins, He would take care of His daughter. But since I’m being completely honest here, the idea of giving it all to Him, scares the CRAP out of me. How frustrating! How frustrating it is to KNOW that your Heavenly Father can take care of you but just being completely unable (or unwilling) to let go!

I think many people face this problem…not necessarily the same situation (although, most of my fellow bi-polar peeps I’ve talked with have the same struggles) but I think everyone at some point struggles with giving their everything to God. I have had my hard times with my relationship with God…many years filled with doubt, confusion, and even resentment at times…but I have never doubted His presence in my life. I’ve never doubted His unconditional love for me and how much He cares for me. It genuinely makes me sad watching people I know (or don’t know), who don’t have Jesus, go thru some of the hurts and pains this world throws at them. I know I couldn’t face life without Him.

Many things in my life lately have been out of my control. Different things. Things I don’t want to get into. I’ve been trying my absolute hardest to re-gain control on my own and to make things happen the way I want them to happen. Almost humorously…things keep blowing up in my face. Really, if it wasn’t SO frustrating…it would be humorous. And hopefully some day I will be able to look back at this as the time God was really trying to show me that my way of doing things SUCKS. Because ya know what? It does. I can FEEL God asking me “Are you done yet?”.

I’m really trying. This is hands down the hardest thing I’ve been thru. My heart has been hurting a lot…and it’s pretty much my own fault. I’ve got to stop stressing so much about what I can do to make the hurt stop and give it to God. On my lunch break today, I sat in my car and just cried. I literally cannot keep doing this on my own.

Have you ever just opened your Bible randomly to see where you land? To see if something sticks out like asking God to speak to you? Okay well I did that today. I randomly opened to…

2 Corinthians 1:3-7…”Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, ⁴ who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves receive from God. ⁵ For just as we share abundantly in the sufferings of Christ, so also our comfort abounds through Christ. ⁶ If we are distressed, it is for your comfort and salvation; if we are comforted, it is for your comfort, which produces in you patient endurance of the same sufferings we suffer. ⁷ And our hope for you is firm, because we know that just as you share in our sufferings, so also you share in our comfort.”

I cried some more. I’m a big emotional baby sometimes. He’s been here for me this WHOLE time. No…the verse isn’t really about control…but it’s about comfort. I’ve been searching for some sort of comfort for a little while now. So the fact that THIS was the verse I opened up to, kinda made me think “Ok, God, I know…I know. You are here”. God’s plan for me is so much greater than my plan for myself. Sure…I wish that my plan would roll out the way I want it to. But it’s been proven time and time again that my plan isn’t the best for me. God wants-and KNOWS- what is best for me.

Okay I’m done. What I intended to be a short post turned into a long one…as usual. And re-reading it…it sounds a little jumbled. Oh well. It makes me feel better :P

I’ve had people tell me I wear my heart on my sleeve and that I’m too open about stuff sometimes. That could take up a whole other blog post. Let me just say…that I want people to know that they aren’t alone. Not all Christians are the “holier than thou” “my life is perfect because I have Jesus” Christians. This, folks, is real. Real struggles…real life.