Today, June 16, is our 4th wedding anniversary. Another year under our belt! Can you believe how fast time is going? So much has happened in these 4 years-both good and bad-and we keep on truckin'. We have cried together and laughed together even more. We have created unforgettable memories and have made the most of unthinkable events. I wouldn't trade these years for anything and I look forward to many more.
I wanted to do something cute today and post on Facebook our mushy gushy wedding vows we wrote. It has been a while since I have even seen them so it took a little digging but I finally found them in my maiden name email account! I excitedly opened them and began reading-only to have my smile slowly fade as I read them. As I read each promise I made to you, I realized that I have literally broken every single vow I made to you. Most of them were cutesy vows like promising to learn how to be a better cook and some of them were serious like promising to never go to bed angry. 4 years in and I still loathe cooking and look for the easy way out every single meal. 4 years in and I know there have been nights we have gone to bed angry at each other. Silly or serious, my heart started to break over these promises I made to you that I haven't kept.
Honestly, I'm not sure if I wish I would have written more realistic vows or that I would have remembered them and taken them more seriously. Probably a little of both. I had never been married, tho. I didn't know how messy life could be and I definitely didn't know how difficult marriage could at times be. It made me think of the How I Met Your Mother episode where Lily and Marshall got married and Marshall says he vows to keep at least 80 percent of his vows to which Lily replies "Seems a little high". He then goes on to say that life is messy- but he vows to keep updating his vows as they go thru life changing and growing together.
Yes, I just made a HIMYM reference.
I'm so sorry I made promises to you that I couldn't keep. If I would have known then what I know now, I probably would have said some things different. Maybe. Nah, I still probably would have held onto the hope that I could make them happen-and I wish I would have. People go into marriage with high hopes and expectations, and maybe we have just dealt with a lot more than most people do as a young married couple, but married life is nothing like I expected it would be but I wouldn't trade it for anything.
So maybe I didn't keep my original marriage vows-but that doesn't mean I don't love you or care for our marriage and it doesn't mean I'm not committed to us. I'm a broken person, and I have made so many mistakes yet you have shown me grace and love throughout it all. I haven't kept my marriage vows, but I promise you that as long as you will have me, I am yours. I promise to keep trying to be a better woman and wife for you. I promise to never, ever stop trying. I can't promise I wont hurt you and I can't promise I wont disappoint you. I can't promise I wont tick you off or never be naggy again. I can't promise to never ever back seat drive again. I can't promise...well...there is a lot haha. I do, however, promise to never give up and to never stop thriving to be the wife you deserve. I promise to never be content just surviving in our marriage.
Here's to another year. Here's to the joys the last year have brought and here's to the trials as well. They've grown us and continue to grow us. We will never stop growing, but here's to many more years of growing together.
Love Always,
Katie
I wanted to do something cute today and post on Facebook our mushy gushy wedding vows we wrote. It has been a while since I have even seen them so it took a little digging but I finally found them in my maiden name email account! I excitedly opened them and began reading-only to have my smile slowly fade as I read them. As I read each promise I made to you, I realized that I have literally broken every single vow I made to you. Most of them were cutesy vows like promising to learn how to be a better cook and some of them were serious like promising to never go to bed angry. 4 years in and I still loathe cooking and look for the easy way out every single meal. 4 years in and I know there have been nights we have gone to bed angry at each other. Silly or serious, my heart started to break over these promises I made to you that I haven't kept.
Honestly, I'm not sure if I wish I would have written more realistic vows or that I would have remembered them and taken them more seriously. Probably a little of both. I had never been married, tho. I didn't know how messy life could be and I definitely didn't know how difficult marriage could at times be. It made me think of the How I Met Your Mother episode where Lily and Marshall got married and Marshall says he vows to keep at least 80 percent of his vows to which Lily replies "Seems a little high". He then goes on to say that life is messy- but he vows to keep updating his vows as they go thru life changing and growing together.
Yes, I just made a HIMYM reference.
I'm so sorry I made promises to you that I couldn't keep. If I would have known then what I know now, I probably would have said some things different. Maybe. Nah, I still probably would have held onto the hope that I could make them happen-and I wish I would have. People go into marriage with high hopes and expectations, and maybe we have just dealt with a lot more than most people do as a young married couple, but married life is nothing like I expected it would be but I wouldn't trade it for anything.
So maybe I didn't keep my original marriage vows-but that doesn't mean I don't love you or care for our marriage and it doesn't mean I'm not committed to us. I'm a broken person, and I have made so many mistakes yet you have shown me grace and love throughout it all. I haven't kept my marriage vows, but I promise you that as long as you will have me, I am yours. I promise to keep trying to be a better woman and wife for you. I promise to never, ever stop trying. I can't promise I wont hurt you and I can't promise I wont disappoint you. I can't promise I wont tick you off or never be naggy again. I can't promise to never ever back seat drive again. I can't promise...well...there is a lot haha. I do, however, promise to never give up and to never stop thriving to be the wife you deserve. I promise to never be content just surviving in our marriage.
Here's to another year. Here's to the joys the last year have brought and here's to the trials as well. They've grown us and continue to grow us. We will never stop growing, but here's to many more years of growing together.
Love Always,
Katie
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